The Faith of the Centurion

I took leave today and I woke up with such a yearning to know God better through studying the gospel. I have been reading since this morning and again (this afternoon) I continued in this fashion and came across a story that has truly convicted my heart in the ways of The Lord.

As I type this post, I am leaning and stretching over my bible with the story that I have just learned - That of 'The Faith of The Centurion'.

In this story we learn a number of valuable things to remember in the Christian walk and faith. We learn about a Roman officer, who by his birth and citizenship, is supposed to completely be naturalized against Christ and His power and authority. And yet, this centurion APPROACHES Jesus and asks Him to heal his (the Roman officer's) servant. That is just one of the very many marvels! The fact that some who would naturally think he has more authority and power over Jesus to humbly ask Him to heal his friend was just incredible.

Secondly, he (the Roman officer)…

Father, forgive me

My God; My Father; Abba...

I have fallen astray. 
Have mercy on me. 
I write this post with a heavy heart. Tears are streaming down my face as though all I feel is held in these mere tear drops of mine that are unworthy of Your ear. ... of Your heart.
Funny how this is. Gravity is directing my tears in a downward direction when it's commonly thought that You are only up in the sky somewhere. And yet I've come to know that You are everywhere; all around; omnipresent. 
Words fail me. I'm very good expressing myself through feelings but not so much through words. I am, however, intentional becoming better at this for spoken word and prayer is important in the Christian journey.  
I have disobeyed You and I know it - I've known it for the longest time. It doesn't come as a surprise to me as, although I wouldn't define myself as someone who isn't well taught (and by well taught I don't mean that I haven't received good teaching, I just mean that I have n…